the offWhites

Well, not to tempt fate or anything, but today seemed to be better (quick, knock on wood!). It helped that it was the first sunny day we’ve seen in a month (still cold, though), but also, I actually pretended to be happy, and it sort of didn’t feel like pretending.  Man, I hate it when that happens - I mean, I’m much happier to feel happy about a situation I’ve chosen, but there’s something about nurturing and growing a really nasty bad mood. I know it’s bad for my health (mental and physical both), but there is a strange sort of vacuum that I’m aware of, which is weird.  Does that make sense?

Eh, I’m tired, and if I keep trying to explain it all to myself, it’ll just get more confusing as the word count increases. It makes sense enough for today, I guess.